I'm amused by how many people think they know how to generally define LOVE. Like there is really a set-in-stone explanation for that feeling, that emotion, that burden.. that we call LOVE. In an ideal world, LOVE is pure, unwavering, unselfish, genuine, unconditional, happy go lucky frollicking in the fucking meadow holding hands and blowing bubbles and shit. Oh no, I'm not bitter AT ALL. Right. Even I can't convince my self.

First of all, Dictionary.com is trying to tell me that LOVE is a "warm personal attachment?" Really, now? Which jackass thought of that? It's a cute way of putting it, isn't it. Warm... personal... attachment. That is to say the least. I wonder if that jackass has ever given every minute of her time, every corner of her mind, every drop of her tears for someone. I wonder if she's ever been deceived by the love of her life into believing that "She was just a friend." I wonder if she knows what it feels like to wait all day.. all night.. a few days.. a few weeks... a month. for a phone call.. a text. Half-realizing he will probably never ever talk to you again, yet half-hoping love was real and he will come around.

I wonder if she's ever stayed up all night in his arms dreading the moment he lets go..hearing his heart beat as fast as your own. I wonder if she's ever buried her face in his shirt to breathe in his scent and got butterflies just from the reminder of him. I wonder if she's ever missed her exit to get to work listening to that one song that explains him perfectly and not at all bothered that she's late because she has time to play it over again. I wonder if she's ever saved every single sweet text message he's ever sent just so she could read through them when he's not around.

Love is bittersweet isn't it... I don't even know what I'm talking about anymore. I started off bitter, and realizing how good love DOES feel.. I almost feel like it really is worth the pain.. the bullshit... the hurt. It just proves that love isn't just pure happiness.. it's the overcoming of the ugly that makes it beautiful...